So we took some pics today. When I say "we" I mean my daughters Ally and Julia and myself. Ally has agreed to be one of my accountability partners, and the first task I asked of her was to take some recent photos. Wow is all I can say. The camera doesn't lie is all I can even think of to say right now. I didn't realize I had so many chins and lumps and rolls. I am a photographer and I enjoy being behind the camera, but I also know much about a good angle in which to photograph someone. I can get the right shot and make even someone like myself look pretty darn good. :) I'm even good at this when taking self portraits.
After handing the camera over to someone else this afternoon, I received quite the shock when viewing the results. I swear I never knew I was so large. Wow. And getting larger, apparently. I'm telling you, this was a HUGE wake up call. Did I really think I could hide all this food I have been medicating myself with? Well, after stepping on the scale this morning and finding out that I am 140lbs overweight, and realizing that an entire person is attached to me..gag. Then the pictures. gag. It has been quite the day. I feel the need to just take a deep breath..step back and formulate a plan.
I think I have an idea of what I need to do. I have counseled with my husband and even my amazingly wonderful seventeen year old daughter and with their support and encouragement, I feel as if I am ready to take on the task of finding my way back to the woman God created me to be. I was made for more than this.
As I drove home from the Bible study this evening, a song played on the radio. God has always been faithful in ministering to me through music and tonight was no exception. As I drove and the hunger pangs called my name, and visions of brownies and leftover sausage and peppers clouded my thoughts..this song began to play..
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